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why does it always elude me? i just don't seem to know how to really let go of anyone especially when they've already became a big part of it... well, it's applicable to almost everyone.. lol! i just don't know how to give up...

i want to be able to say that i've already given up on mc, eien and aaron. but, i don't think it's the whole truth.. i just don't get it.. grrr! although i think i'm nearly over eien and mc. the latest hang-over is the hardest.. i just never perfected the moving on thing. and i guess, the proof has already hit me on the face.. aaron. grrr! i didn't even have a chance to talk to him except on the phone wich was only hello coz he couldn't hear me from the noise.. just sucks! it's really harder for me, or probably impossible for me to move on if i can't talk to the person whom i'm moving on from.. that's basically just eien, though at some degree i think mc can also be included in the category. but i'm getting around it quite well.. i just hope i don't do anything rash... or at least if i do it to eien. i should do it while it's easy for me to track him down. grrr! just sucks. i really do hope i'd be able to move on from all this shit! coz i'm the only one doing all the shitty work in all this.